Note to self: perhaps anger management is in order.
I’ve been trying very hard for the past few months to deal with a crappy work environment: oh, the usual–not great pay, supervisors and managers who say they care but really don’t, and the ever-present dilemma of co-workers who I may or may not want to choke on a daily basis. Actually, one such co-worker (not someone I work with closely every day, but I deal with her occasionally) did and said something for which I really wanted to choke her and I said as much to my boss. Literally. I said I was really irritated and wanted to choke her.
Open mouth, insert foot.
Most definitely not the best wording, but he knows me well enough not to take me literally and have me arrested. However, he cautioned me against saying such things, as someone who doesn’t know me might hear and think I’m embarking on delusions of workplace violence.
Very well. I won’t say I want to choke people anymore.
However.
I’m *really* getting to the end of my proverbial rope here. I’ve tried to plow through the BS, just keep working hard, and continue doing my job well. But darnit, it’s really hard. It’s hard to spend 34 hours a week at a place where I feel like the majority just doesn’t care about us little peons.
I’m also tired of people defending their idiocy and/or laziness by claiming that I don’t know how to do the job I’ve done for nearly two years and/or I may not know how to count correctly. Hello, apparently I’m stupid.
sigh.
Make all the meanies go away, please. I’m so tired of working hard, very rarely screwing up, taking time out of my day to help others, and not really getting the respect I deserve. And it sucks, and it’s not fair, but that’s the way the world is, right?
I’ve been looking for a new job all year. I’ve applied over and over, and no one has called me. I had one interview that failed horribly (aka, job was posted as one position but in reality it’s way more for little pay). ARGH.
I don’t know what my point is, really. Just venting, I suppose. All I know is that my life feels really pointless and like a waste when I spend so much time and energy on something that gives me very little, if anything, in return. I think I need to quit, but I have to work–maybe I should just get over it and go back to retail. It’s near to the Christmas season–I’m sure people will be hiring. I just need to get out and do something else. Hopefully I can keep my sanity till then.
If you read all this, thank you. Please send some new-job vibes and thoughts my way.
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Ugghhhhh I know the feeling.
It seems as though it MUST be possible to have a decent job that makes you happy, but how come it is so hard to come by?
I like my job for the most part, but it’s still a Huge Coporation that I work for. Yes, *my* manager cares about the work I do, but the Big Boss Man at the top doesn’t care that I don’t get the same benefits as everyone else, even though I do just as much (if not more, ahem) work than my counterparts. But I digress.
Work is just annoying. When are we starting our knitting commune?
For real! Knitting is my savior, otherwise I think I really would lose my sanity.
My immediate supervisor cares and appreciates me the majority of the time, but there’s little he can do about how the big managers run things. And that’s where all the problems are.
Keep looking! *new job vibes coming your way*
People suck. Working sucks. Not getting paid for what you’re worth sucks. Being taken for granted sucks. But even worse - being underestimated in your ability.
Good new job vibes headed your way!
Emma: I will definitely keep looking. It has to pay off eventually!
turtlegirl: thanks–I appreciate it!
It will pay off, I am sure of it. Keep focusing on what YOU want. I work in a museum and although I can relate to incompetent bosses and whathaveyou, I can actually see them anytime I want. The paycheck really sucks though.
I’m sorry i’ve gotten so behind in my reading.
Hang in their lady! Work sucks. . been there - also sending you new AWESOME job vibes!