Current knitting project: the Lace Leaf Scarf from last spring/summer’s Vogue Knitting. I think I am ready to tackle lace full on! Hopefully I won’t take forever finishing this. Scarves usually bore me toward the middle, but lace keeps it interesting since I get to see each of the leaves take shape, as opposed to something like ribbing which gets old pretty fast.

I’m waiting for the last of my swap yarn to arrive; I have a pair of lace socks waiting in the wings. And get this! That pattern uses a *chart* and I am going to attempt to knit from a chart. That’s sort of exciting for me, hehehe.

And you’ve probably already seen this photo, but here it is: my finished Green Gable tee/sweater/thing! I still need to wash it…I hope it won’t pill too much. The yarn is part cotton and quite soft, but I’m sure it’s going to pill some. Hopefully I won’t be picking lint balls off of it constantly.

I am now watching Bridget Jones’s Diary for the second time today and the fourth time in a week, I think. It was on the Bravo channel back to back last weekend, and I remembered how much I love this movie! The unedited version is far better, of course, so I’ve been watching it this afternoon/evening on DVD. Though, technically right now I’m more “listening” to it than watching it. When I really enjoy a movie, I tend to loop the DVD endlessly as background noise while I’m online, knitting, or whatever.

The husband finally comes home tomorrow night from his trip to Virginia. I have enjoyed the quiet time to myself, but am looking forward to seeing him again.

[tags]knitting, green gable, lace leaf scarf, bridget jones[/tags]

Posted: June 29th, 2006 under Film Critic, Knitting.
Comments: 4

I’m tired of being melancholy, so I’m attempting to cheer up by immersing myself in knitting and yarn. But not by buying more yarn! Just swapping. Green Gable is almost finished! I am literally inches away…I’m just a bit concerned that I might run out of yarn, yikes! We’ll see how that goes.

Work is okay of late. Evil Co-Worker is still, well, evil. My supervisor told me that he is going to be on leave all next week, and I’m taking Wednesday off for my birthday, so ECW will have to hold down the fort all by herself that day, muahahaha. She is probably going to be running around like a chicken without her head. Well, you have to learn sometime! I did, we all do! That’s the way it goes. Just get it done already, that’s what I say.

I think sometimes I am really mean on the inside. But I don’t know what’s worse; feeling sort of evil and mean toward certain people, or kissing everyone’s butts and trying to pretend that you like everyone when you really don’t. Semi-evil, or fake? I think I choose semi-evil. But that doesn’t really seem right, does it. I don’t know, I’m just used to the “love your neighbor” creed and to be honest, I’ve never been great at actually doing that.

I suppose it’s sort of a good thing that I don’t currently belong to a church. I’ve belonged to a few in my life, all across the board (Catholic, Pentecostal, non-denominational). But really? I don’t think I was ever a very “good” Christian, whatever that means! Can you just stop being a Christian, I wonder? Have I? It’s all so confusing.

Sometimes I feel like most of the things I have been taught are at worst a lie and at best a heavy fabrication. I stop and ask myself what my instinct and intuition tell me, and I must confess that my intuition is far more liberal than the doctrines I was taught growing up. For example:

Homosexuality
- What I’ve been taught: wrong, not God’s plan, etc.
- My intuition: it doesn’t really matter to me either way!

Abortion
- What I’ve been taught: wrong, murder, all that.
- My intuition: I don’t think I would do it myself, but everyone should choose for themselves how to live and people shouldn’t try to force others to be moral because that just defeats the purpose of morality itself.

Men/Husbands as “head of the house”
- What I’ve been taught: Biblically, the man is the head and the woman is…submissive. (I hate that word.)
- My intuition: why should the man be the head? Is he more important? Do I really believe that man came first, then woman? What if God was a woman! (I’m just saying.)

See what I mean? In recent years, I have adopted a “live and let live” philosophy. I’m not sure when or how that happened, exactly, but that’s where I am now. And it’s completely opposed to everything I was told to think and believe. So yeah, I’m perplexed, to say the least.

If only everything in life were as simple as a skein of yarn, needles, and free time. Then the world would make more sense.

[tags]knitting, religion, beliefs[/tags]

Posted: June 27th, 2006 under Deep Thoughts, Knitting.
Comments: 6

I’m definitely going through some kind of phase. The kind where nothing makes sense and I think the universe is having a good ol’ time with me.

Thanks so much.

(God, I’m so melancholy lately.)

Posted: June 25th, 2006 under Deep Thoughts.
Comments: 2

I just had a rude awakening: I really cannot sing.

Just for kicks, I recorded myself on my laptop singing along to my iPod. BIG mistake. yikes! I suck at singing. This is such a disappointment. I seriously sounded like an American Idol reject.

Funny how your voice sounds great inside your head…then you hear it recorded, and it just sounds gross.

[tags]random, i can’t sing[/tags]

Posted: June 23rd, 2006 under Randomness.
Comments: 3

Posted: June 22nd, 2006 under Mad Rants.
Comments: 9

ok, after the past few downer entries, I need to cheer up my posts just a wee bit! You know what that means…meme time!

I found this one through hedgeblog:

Closest Blue Book Meme
1. Grab the nearest book with a blue cover.
2. Open the book to page 86.
3. Find the first full paragraph.
4. Post the text in your journal along with these instructions.
5. Don’t search around and look for the coolest book you can find, just the closest blue book.

‘Then learn from me, not to judge by appearances: I am, as Miss Scatcherd said, slatternly; I seldom put, and never keep, things in order; I am careless; I forget rules; I read when I should learn my lessons; I have no method; and sometimes I say, like you, I cannot bear to be subjected to systematic arrangements. This is all very provoking to Miss Scatcherd, who is naturally neat, punctual, and particular.’ - from Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte

What a great quote! Guess I should get around to actually reading Jane Eyre, hmmmm?

I saw this one at A Knitted Frenzy. What does my all-knowing iPod have to say about me and the future…?

The way it works:
1. Put your iPod on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question.

How am I feeling today?
Somewhere Over the Rainbow - Jewel (ok, I’ll go for that.)

Will I get far in life?
Good Day - Luce (outlook good?)

How do my friends see me?
Tear in Your Hand - Tori Amos (ummm)

When will I get married?
Between the Bars - Elliott Smith (haha! well, I’m already married, so what does that mean?)

What is my best friend’s theme song?
Truly Madly Deeply - Savage Garden

What is the story of my life?
Send Me on My Way - Rusted Root (so true! I tend not to like change, but sometimes I get so restless and need to move on!)

What was high school like?
In the Rough - Anna Nalick (haha! ain’t that the truth)

How am I going to get ahead in life?
I Was Just Thinking - Teitur

What is the best thing about me?
I Will Follow - U2 (this is true too! I’m a follower, not a leader)

How is today going to be?
Love Song - Hanson (this is pretty good)

What is in store for this weekend?
Me and a Gun - Tori Amos (LOL! look out this weekend…hide the kids. And yourself. it’s either that, or what the song is really about…in which case, I’d better hide myself.)

What song describes my parents?
Heart and Shoulder - Heather Nova (that’s pretty sweet)

What song describes your grandparents?
Same in Any Language - Ruckus (awww!)

How is my life going?
Rest in Pieces - Saliva (LOL! my iPod is watching me)

What song will they play at my funeral?
Trees - Marty Casey (for the record, and I know I’ve said it before, but I want Closing Time by Semisonic played at my funeral! I’ll go out with a bang, haha)

How does the world see me?
Fix You - Coldplay (the world thinks I need to be fixed?)

Will I have a happy life?
Fifty Miles - Rebecca Vine (maybe I should ask again later)

What do my friends really think of me?
Nessun Dorma - Sarah Brightman (considering the whole song is in Italian and I don’t speak Italian, I have no idea what this means, hehe)

Do people secretly lust after me?
Closet - Pete Yorn (huh? lol…)

How can I make myself happy?
Original of the Species - U2 (I think that means I should be unique)

What should I do with my life?
Standing Still - Jewel (hmmm)

Will I ever have children?
Times Like These - Foo Fighters (?)

What is some good advice for me?
Sick Cycle Carousel - Lifehouse (??)

What is my signature dancing song?
Underneath - Hanson (ok, that works)

What do I think my current theme song is?
Cornflake Girl - Tori Amos (rabbit…where’d you put the keys, girl?)

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Will I Ever Make It Home - Ingram Hill (yep)

What type of men/women do you like?
Faithful to Me - Jennifer Knapp (how perfect is this!!)

What kind of kisser are you?
Personal Jesus - Johnny Cash (lol!)

What’s your style?
When Nothing Satisfies - Jennifer Knapp (interesting)

What kind of lover are you?
Believe Me Baby (I Lied) - Trisha Yearwood (don’t believe this!)

What would be playing on a first date?
Anything Goes - Jewel (muahaha! I’m not a ho, I promise)

Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
Why Georgia - John Mayer (Georgia, here I come?)

[tags]meme, book meme, ipod meme[/tags]

Posted: June 20th, 2006 under Q & A.
Comments: 3

This post is going to be realllllly long. You have been warned.

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Posted: June 19th, 2006 under My So-Called Life.
Comments: 3